The rollercoaster of 2020 into 2021

Well, I won't lie and can't, for that matter. It's been a while. 2020 was a YEAR!!!  We know covid hit hard no matter where you are. It was hard for us. Husband was deployed, I had to prepare our home in VA to sell and purchase a home in a Florida at the same time! It wasn't easy, but I had great support! During those times, it was stressful. I had to deal with movers, claims, and so much more! I am here to tell you just remember these items are just items. The don't make your place a home. I get it, yes, some items aren't replaceable. However, the military does tell you to take those items with you!!! I did have one painting from my great grandmother that is extremely special to me. I kindly told the movers and they took care of it! Also be sure to offer the people packing your stuff food or water etc. I mean it's the least you could do seeing as they are MOVING YOUR STUFF. 

Now we are pretty much settled in. I am subbing here. My son is in school. I also realized it's time I start typing again, I need an outlet and others may need help. We aren't alone. There are others feeling the same way! 

Just remember, each day is a new day. Don't let yesterday ruin today. Smile you don't know who's day you could brighten just with a smile.

New Year...

New Year. New ....

It's a new year but is it a new me... no. I can tell you. Not much has changed. Little man and I well, things have gotten rough. Which is why I haven't posted. What you don't hear about is how rocky things get between the parents when the other parent deploys. So dad is deployed. Guess what although, he is use to it me being the main caregiver he is still challenging me. He thinks things will change. He still thinks he can tell me No. So needless to say the power struggle has been real. Seven days after the new year I had some guy back into me then lie about it so I've been dealing with that. Also lets continue on about the fact the military in general is horrible with orders. We are in limbo with knowing orders in the near future which really sucks especially since we do actually own our current house. At least I hope deployment is mostly over, so I hope!!

Next post will be some care package posts!! 

Murphy’s Law of Deployment

Murphy’s Law of Deploy: If it is going to break or go wrong, it will while he is gone.

This is our second deployment together. Our first with a child. Our little guy has never had to deal with ships. Mac went to shore duty shortly after he was born. Our first deployment beginning was horrible. The toilet over flowed and if you used any type of water it caused the toilet water to keep over flowing. Well deployment number two started a little over two months ago. I’ve already had to fix to appliances without him. Our fridge almost fried; if it wasn’t fixed it would have died shortly. The dryer was the next one. One morning wouldn’t even start. Let’s also mention the communications have been down. So I’m not sure if he knows about the dryer or not. I just remind myself to breath. It’d have to be fixed regardless with or without him. Deployments don’t get easier you just learn to deal! Each one has a different obstacle you must over come. All I can say is breath and remember that although it has been more day since you last saw your love it’s also one more day closer to seeing them. Find any and all positive you can; trust me I know that is extremely hard. It is a lot easier said than done, I’m trying too! 

Almost Two Months

Well, they say time flies. Honestly, it doesn’t. It just seems to go by so fast because, let’s face it, you are doing it all by yourself now. I work “two jobs”. I quoted job, many will say what I do isn’t a job. Not only do I claim taxes on my non job but I work with parents. Watching children isn’t for everyone. I watch three other kids besides my own. My child currently goes to a different school making things a little bit more complex. But guess what, I get him to and from school.  Like is hard and it’s not a game. We are coming up on two months down. Just about every day & night I’m asked when is my daddy coming home? Or mommy, why isn’t daddy here. It’s hard. He sees other kids playing with their dad,. I want to thank friends that are dads for including him. All of this an adjustment. But together little man and I can make it through this! 

I'm Back!

 Deployment #2

"They knew it. Time, distance, nothing could separate them. Because the know it was always right. It was always worth the wait."

I'm Back!

It has been nearly five years since I last posted. I am sorry. Life has been hectic, I'm sure most of you can understand. Well, my son was born healthy! He has been the bright star to world. We couldn't be more proud of our little boy. He's now four and goes to pre-k. it's so crazy how fast he has grown. Nathan has been home with me since birth; I worked from home, watching children. I greatly enjoy my job and it has provided the opportunity for me to be home for our son! Not only are we adjusted to him finally going to school. Shortly after he started school, his dad deployed. So this evening, I made a post about how being a parent is hard during deployment. I wasn't looking for sympathy, but it truly got me thinking. It's time I got back into blog posting again. If anything it could help others and it gives me an outlet. So here's the post:

"Just bear with me as I vent a little. I'm not writing this for sympathy. I'm more or less writing it to give others, that have no idea, insight.

The parts of the deployment no one really "prepares" for. Deployments suck. They aren't any better with kids. Instead of just trying to keep yourself busy and mind off the fact a loved one is gone, you now have another little one that doesn't understand. It's hard when he gets so upset cause he can't talk to daddy. Or like tonight, starts crying because daddy can't visit. Those are the time that you have to swallow your pain and comfort him. No because he shouldn't see you sad. But because that's when he's hurting and needs you the most. I know it's because he's really tired, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. I won't pretend I know how he feels, cause honestly, I don't. I know the feeling from a spouse view. So that's just a little insight to deployment as we slowly approach the one moth mark.

Tread lightly. I have no time for rude ignorant people."

Just because I have been through a deployment once already, doesn't mean anything. Every deployment had its different obstacles. This one is different for me as I know have a child I have to help get through his first deployments. It's new to me, but I have no doubt my son and I can get through it together. We have the support of my husband, his father, miles/oceans apart. That is one thing I'm thankful for! The trust and support my family has regardless where we are is helpful. So I close on this note, you are not alone! To get through deployments you have to find your support and happy place. Be sure you get into a schedule it helps. I like to always be busy. It's part the reason I've been MIA and now I'm back. Writing gives me the chance to pass time!

So if you could ask me anything what would it be??

Family is where life begins & love never ends

"A baby will make love stronger, days shorter, nights shorter, bank balance smaller, home happier, clothes dirty, the past forgotten, and the future worth living for."

Well, my pregnancy is coming to an end. I have about 7 weeks left. We have chosen the name Nathan. This pregnancy hasn't been easy. Between living with narcolepsy, non medicated, and schooling. I'm excited for his arrival. We are going to have the baby shower soon. Currently, I'm going to the doctors twice a week for non-stress tests because I have gestational diabetes. Gestational Diabetes is very hard to understand. I am trying to understand it still. here's my baby boy!

MIA again.

It's been really crazy around here. I've been slammed with school, house hunting (crossing fingers, I think we found one), and tests tests tests. I've been seeing doctors left and right. Well, one doctor had screened me for a test that recently another doctor thinks I may have. That doctor had sent a note to the previous one asking her to revisit the possibility of me having this Osteogenesis Imperfecta (I'm still doing my research on that). GUESS WHAT:

Tricare doesn't cover the blood work for the test...... so guess who will be calling to find out what is going on tomorrow. That's right, me.

Oh let's not forget I have an appointment Wednesday to check on the baby! ***Crossing fingers*** Maybe, we can find out the sex at this appointment.