Holidays Cheer

With the holidays literally around the corner, I try to share the cheer. But this year it seems to be really hard to get the mood. I managed to get Mac gifts however, the rest is all blah. I even tried to go see the lights at Botanical Gardens. They were amazing but just didn't helped.

So now, I'm still trying. I think it was because Mac was gone all year. I have the tree set up. presents under it. & Thanks to my mother in law there are now more presents.

Although, there are presents, I want to take a step back. Christmas isn't about the presents, it is about family and friends. However, I knew that years ago. I am shamed to admit I looked forward to gifts every year expect this one! I guess it took me being married and having my husband gone majority of the year to realize this. I have everything I want and need. I have a roof over my head, food and medical, amazing animals, everything I need. Now, I have Mac here. It's everything I need. I also have more things than I did growing up and I wouldn't take it for granted now.  So, yes gifts are nice, but lets not forget the meaning behind the holidays. There are many families who don't have their loved ones home for the holidays. They would give away all gifts just to have their loved ones home.

So I leave you with this surprise homecoming video.

Happy Holidays Everyone <3

Back to reality.

Good evening,  I'm sorry I haven't wrote much a lot has taken place since my last post.

First the big news(for me)! The weekend mac got home, he got me a new car! a 2013 Hyundai Elantra.

Well, Mac took his post deployment leave, he also had it extend (this is where I will explain a past post). His leave started off rough, he fought a cold so we relaxed at home until the beginning of December. December 2nd, marked the point where his leave was extended. During his extended leave we spent time in Florida. We enjoyed our time down there but there was one main reason we were there. & here is why:

Back in April I posted a post titled one month one week. It talked about how something had happened in the family and I'd rather not post details. Well, back in April, his grandfather past away. He wasn't allowed to come home until later, which then we have to pay to send him back (WAY TO MUCH MONEY). We thought about it. But his grandfather was cremated. On December 7, 2013 we laid his ashes to rest at the South Florida National Cemetery. I'm really happy mac was able to get closure. It was nice to meet his grandmother :). I will love to go back and stay some more (I'll post pictures soon).

On another note: my health. I went back to the Rheumatologist. He told me just about all my blood word was fine, expect something with red blood cells (nothing major). But he then went on to say, "well, we know something is wrong but we don't know what. I think you should go to john Hopkins center of internal medicine. They are the best and can figure out what exactly is going on." Ok well, I listened but that won't happen unless tricare pays for it. So this begins my research. (John Hopkins hospital is in Baltimore). He told me this at my appointment on the 9th.

After the appointment, I got a little down. I was thankful Mac had arranged for me to pick up my early Christmas present. That afternoon I got to pick up our new addition to the family! Skittles, our new kitten :). She is multi-colored and about 10 weeks old. pictures to come soon.

Well, I think I have filled you in. Christmas is coming soon, so I am trying to make sure I get everything covered before it's way too late. It feels great to be back and trying to get in the groove of things again.

Happy Holidays everyone!

Keeping My Head Up

Good afternoon.

Well, another Monday has come! Today has been quite busy for me. Mac is on duty. His last duty day before he goes on leave :). I saw the Rheumatologist today. ( He hopefully may find why I have a few things wrong that I have.)

I'm not sure I like his personality. I mean I understand why he is the way he is, I think. He asked me a bunch of family history questions.  This doctor also used terms I didn't really know. If I didn't answer questions right away he would ask them again. Granted he is the first, well second now, to truly show he is looking to find the answers. He also went through some exams like making me bend over, bending my knees, feeling my senses on my hands and ankles.  The doctor closed the appointment with, "There definitely is something wrong, we are just unclear what right now. These labs may help." (As he handed me a prescription paper with 13 different labs). & Told me to have them done as soon as possible.

So what do I do, I drive to Langley and have all 13 labs done then. Almost all 13 were drawn from the same arm. But near the last 4 my vain wasn't having anymore; the tech had to switch arms. After all the labs were done, I felt extremely weak. So I have been taking it slow since.

Now I wait...........

(results in a few weeks)

Communication

In a relationship communication is key. Last night Mac and I chatted about how I was feeling. Granted he got on me for waiting so late. But I'm hoping things will change. I may be a different type of woman but I still am a woman and still want to hear things. I also don't mind the video games but when it's constant, like he is physically there but not mentally.  After we talked, I began to feel better so I'm hoping for the best :).

Tonights a duty night. lovely right? Well his leave starts soon, so I may go MIA for a little.

Remember, people aren't mind readers so if you are feeling some way you need to let that person know or else they won't know. Simple as that :).

Sorry short blog today. I will have longer blogs once my life picks back up again haha.

Readjusting.....

Well, everyone says readjusting is rough. I know see why that can be. Shortly before mac got home he received a package. This package was the Call of Duty Ghost.  Well, now I don't know. I'm glad he enjoys playing it, & I'm trying to give him his space. But something doesn't feel right. Me I rather just turn the game off and spend time with him.

Don't get me wrong we did spend sometime together before he started playing it. But now in his free time That's what it is.... Call of Duty. I wouldn't be so bothered by this but something happened today that has pushed me a bit to feel this way. Today after we got back from errands and what not, he started the game. Ok fine, so I decided to visit a friend down the street. His response was where, why, and when will I be home. I get that he is loving and caring ok, but you're playing a game I really don't want to watch. Well, I went; I wasn't even gone two hours. I come home to a disgusted look on his face...... Maybe he is drained from the game. I don't know. Honestly, I don't really know how he is truly. I ask.

When I ask I get yeah, I'm alright. So I don't push anymore. Don't get me started on cleaning.........

Time for me to get back in the groove doesn't help that I'm just not in the mood. I prefer to lay around and just lay there then do anything right now. Hopefully things will change come his soon approaching leave.

Well I will post again soon. Staying positive and hoping it's just hormones making me feel this way :)

HE'S HOME!

Well, I welcomed home the love of my life November 7th! I'm extremely happy he is home. The first night I woke up constantly just making sure he was still there. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy he is home, but it was weird to have him back. I enjoyed it! Now, it's time for us to catch up on things we missed :) but here are some pictures from our homecoming more to come!!!

Homecoming is coming....

The Kearsarge Amphibious Ready Group comprised of USS Kearsarge, USS San Antonio and USS Carter Hall will return to Norfolk, Virginia Beach and Camp Lejeune after an 8-month deployment. Kearsarge Arg To Return Home

Well, it's finally here! 8 months later and an homecoming.  I'm so anxious. I don't have much to write about in this blog because I don't want to give too much information. Also, I don't want to give information out that may be a "surprise" for Mac. So stay tuned for the blog about homecoming after it happens :).