Long day coming to an end.

Productive day for me today kind of. I had to be at work by 0500. I get there and lay on the couch until the kids wake up about 0730. We went through our daily routine. I don't think little Jaythan likes seafood though. For lunch I had to make some shrimp things, I've personally never seen them but I don't like seafood. He took one bite and started screaming! Then spit it out!  After lunch is nap time!!! Jaythan woke up about 1330. Then miss Alexis woke up about 1530! & their dear daddy got home about 1600!! Well after their dad got home, I came home and take the dogs out. Afterward I knocked out day one of my online class. Thank goodness. Now it is time for me to relax a bit before almost identical day tomorrow.

128 days down for me. I'm really excited about that! still having to work on my list for homecoming! I don't want it to creep up too fast and then I run out of time trying to get it done!

It's been a very busy day. I'm exhausted but not exhausted enough to sleep I hope that makes sense.

Good to disaster.

Yesterday was a great day in general then it just went to disaster. Well, I woke did what I usually do. Cleaned a bit, even got to email a bit with mac! It was a great day just because having a minor conversation on email it's been a while since I have been able to! Well, then I go to class. It was boring nothing new. society, law and government how more interesting can it get than talking about supreme justices and judges. About 9:30 my class was over. So then I head home.

So it was about 10 when I got back to the complex and before I entered the parking lot to go home there was a line of 6 black people(not trying to sound racist). (Lined from the curb to the complex). Well I stopped but then they stopped so I thought I was clear to go.  I went, by the time I had grabbed all my stuff and got out of the car; one of them came up to me. I hadn't even shut the car door. She was like didn't you see us walking. You didn't stop. So I responded I'm sorry but I did stop. She continued to say no you didn't. Then she got in my face and said if I ever hit her daughters I'd be in trouble. So I asked if it was a threat she said no it was a promise. But since I felt threatened I called the cops. (Now remember I have yet to even get on the curb to go inside my house) Then the woman was like my x is a detective and I will have them give you a citation and he will follow you or something along those lines. Well she continued to talk, I wasn't having it so I ignored her and waited for cops. I explained all this to them and how I didn't want to go in with them right here. I didn't feel safe and felt threatened I mean it's one of me and four teenagers & that women. I had them make that group leave before I went in.

Now I've seen these teenagers on a daily basics. Acting all big and bad. So I really didn't even want anything to do with them. But the cops took her info my info waited with me. I went in I had a friend come over to walk dogs with me. Then I went to bed.

It's amazing how a complete stranger can turn you day inside out and upside down!! I really just want my Husband home! one more day down is all I keep telling myself. I'm four months farther than when we started!!  I won't let a group of 6 people ruin my enjoyment of getting closer to seeing my husband! I refuse to sink!! <3

4 months down.

Well, we have hit four months and the emails are finally up. But I feel so lost :/. I miss him. I was fine the whole deployment until now. & of course it's night time again when I feel this way. Four months that's the longest we have been apart. It really does hurt but I know we are stronger than any deployment. You know how it is when you want to pick up the phone and tell them something but they can't answer.

 Mac & I usually don't talk on the phone while they are between ports. The port was over a month ago we talked maybe right before the communication was cut it wasn't much just a warning. Well, now I'm missing his voice mainly his face. When they are in port they usually are facetime so right now I really just want to see his face. I keep telling myself it's downhill from here but it seems harder now then it did before he left. Well, at least this week alone. I'm wondering if it is a hormonal unbalance thing after being taken off medication.

I've even begun planning homecoming. It doesn't look like I listed everything.

Homecoming To-Do List

Clean House
Get Hair Done
Get nails done
Find a cute outfit - yes I put this in there.
Get dogs groomed
Get Mac's family lodge
Get Mac's car cleaned
few other things -since he is now reading these :p

Do you think there should be anything else added to this list?

all over again....

It has been 124 days since I watched my husband walked down that pier. It was a very hard day. I felt so many feelings at once, I couldn't even begin to explain it. Today was the first day I have been that close to the piers since. After seeing the same class ships all those feelings flashed back. I was able to hold the tears back this time. I don't think I was upset because of the memory flashback but proud because I have made it this far! WE HAVE! I wouldn't have made it this far if it wasn't for a wonderful man supporting me from seas and miles apart; knowing I'm not alone, and that there are multiple people going through the same thing. I can't wait until it's over. The day I stand at the pier welcoming him home! I miss you mac!


 Strong enough to get this far strong enough to keep going! <3


Another day down! another day closer!

A woman's body!

I was reading through my subscribed blogs and came across a post about loving your body. She helps woman of all sizes and shapes love their body. I fell in love with her motivation. I'm may be tiny now. But I wasn't always this way! I can't word it as well as the person I saw the blog from or even Brittany, Herself. So please read their blog and she how powerful the message they are spreading is!
Brittany, Herself -The Navy Life of A Pilot's Wife.
Why I Care About Your Shoes - Brittany, Herself

Last night.

Well, last night was rough for me. I don't know it was just one of those nights. I came home from class about 10pm. It had been nasty all day. I just laid on the couch of course I left the radio on. I have a radio on for the dogs when I'm gone. It played all those songs and it just kept adding up. Oh, not to mention going on three weeks of not hearing from mac doesn't help. But it was the first night in a very long time I just couldn't hold the tears back. I really just miss mac. I could always count on an email around a certain time. he was always there for me to vent about my horrible class. & boy was that class last night horrible. I was the only criminal justice major student in that class. Everyone was a business major and working for their associates! I'm out of place! My professor is everywhere but where he should be well at least this week. So I decided it was the weather, classes, & not to mention I have been taken off of some medication due to side effects..... so I'm adjusting to living without it after being on them for 6-8 years give or take.

Well when I got upset I started searching for something to make me feel better and I found one!

i made it four months. or 122 days! I can make it the rest of the way!

River city

Well, it's been almost three weeks since I received my last email from mac. Lovely river city. I'm praying they open up soon. I'm not complaining I knew this was going to happen. Well, I know he is trying the best he can to keep me inform. On the bright note, four months down!!! I'm really excited about it!

I'll try to keep you updated! <3