Wednesday, September 25, 2013


I want to apologize for being MIA. I'm back to Monday - Friday until about 3. Starting time varies between, right now, 6:15 - 7:30. Of course, I still have my dogs at home so they need my attention when I do get home.  Then I have so much to do before mac comes home. I'd list it but I'm sure he is reading.

Yesterday I went to dinner at my brother in laws house. That was really nice actually. He got me a small card and it wished me happy birthday. I met his girlfriend who is really sweet as well. Friday we may be off to howl-o-screem (I'm not too sure about that plan just yet, we shall see how it goes).

Well, my pathology results came in, no suprise it was appendicitis. Thankfully it wasn't anything crazy. Well it's nap time here with the kids, so I should probably try and rest.

 I will be back writing again soon.  :)

Sunday, September 22, 2013

Birthday? What Birthday?

Today, felt like another day to me. It just didn't feel right. Everyone is saying happy birthday and stuff but I'm sitting here thinking to myself, this isn't a birthday it's just another day. Without Mac here I don't really care for anything. I just want to keep going. This weekend with my best friend, Ashley was awesome. It was the first time in a long time I have felt great! But as for my birthday, I wish it wasn't such a big deal with my family.

Let me try and rephrase that. I love my family and I love how they want to celebrate. But as the night comes to an end it's getting hard to not miss him. I have opened his presents to me as in the earlier blog. When I got home and unpacked I just lost it. I miss him. I can not wait until he is home! It's been 195 days we have been separated by seas!

Daisypath Vacation tickers


Yesterday, (Saturday September 21st) Mac gave me the ok to open my presents today. I did and boy, did it hit my emotions.
"You and Me" - Everyday, building on our love.
"Together"- for those who have found their true partners in love and life.
"Anniversary" - love ever endures.
"Promise" - Hold dear the promise of love.

Once I opened it and read what each one meant, he called. It was international calling, of course, but I'm so thankful he called. As soon as he started talking, asking how was I, I began to cry. It had been so long since I heard his voice. It was great happiness to hear his voice. The gifts were extremely thoughtful and full of emotions. But I love them to death. It means a lot to me!  I know he wishes he could be here. Since he wasn't here I spent the weekend with my best friend Ashley! I love her to death. We went in saw insidious 2, shopping a bit, and dinner. We have had great laughs it is great to see her again. Tomorrow I will begin to pack and head home! It's been a very nice weekend! & I wouldn't change it for the world. <3

Thursday, September 19, 2013

It's Thursday.

Just a small post today. With a cute little picture!

Laugher is the best medicine for anything. So when your feeling down try to find something that will make you laugh :). 

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Attitude is Everything

Our attitude towards life determines life's attitude towards us

It's true. Our attitude towards life really does determine life's attitude towards us! When you wake up in the morning, you have an attitude towards how your day may be. Well, if you wake up feeling horrible but you look at it in a positive way life will seem a bit happier. Things aren't easy but doesn't mean to ruin life by moping. Make the best of what you have.

Prime example, I have multiple health issues some that have absolutely no answers of how to make it better. Some that really are just dragging with failed attempts to reverse it. I could be horrible, I could mope around and just hate everything. That would be my attitude towards life. However, I can't tell you life's attitude towards me with that view, because I don't have the view. I look past the pain and frustration I may have. I put a smile on my face no matter what I am going through and keep going. Life's attitude towards me has changed from when I was a kid and hated everything. It's much more simple and enjoyable this way. 

Another example, deployments. If your significant other recently deployed or is soon to deploy don't pull yourself down. Pull yourself up! If all you are doing is talking about the negative about deployment then that is all you will get. Life will become depressing. Pull yourself up or ask someone to help pull you up. It makes life more enjoyable and helps the time while you wait for your loved one to return. 

Optimistism can take you a long way. Don't be that one bad apple that can bring a crowd down. Be that one person people can enjoy being around.

One another note: 
A very powerful video I would love for you to watch! The power of giving and caring!

This Three Minute Commercial Puts Full Length Hollywood Films To Shame

Another Night

It's another night here. Classes are done so my nights aren't as occupied anymore. I'm really missing Mac tonight. Just the things he would do being here. As you are aware, I am recovering for an emergency Appendectomy.

Well, walking the dogs early one jerked me the wrong way and it really has hurt since. He would walk them for me. But that isn't all that I miss. I am tired of the empty side of the bed he would sleep on. The way he comes home smelling like the ship, even though I really don't like that smell. They way he would just pulling me close on the rough days I'm having or even in general. I miss the littlest of things.

This deployment I have avoided the Tv. I wasn't sure why at first, but I have finally found out why. Most shows have something around romance, love, or even some way of reminding me what he would do. So instead feeling down about it I have just avoided it.

I can keep telling myself I'm almost there. It doesn't seem to work like it did in the beginning. So now, I will continue to do whatever I can to stay busy. I have to clean, get oil changes, should shop for clothes (I don't know). Clothes mean nothing to me right now.

191 days down.

Saturday, September 14, 2013


Well, today is day number Three of healing.

I'm still little bloated and what not. It still kind of hurts to move but I'm up a lot more than I have been the past few days. I went back to the doctors yesterday because I haven't fully recovered. He gave me this nasty medicine Magnesium Citrate, it's suppose to help my stomach. I couldn't even make it through half the bottle without getting sick :/. It taste unbearable. My stomach is extended, I can't even get pants on :/. I've tried. The staff during the surgery was amazing. The surgeon is nice! He talks so softly and make sure he fully listens to you. :)

Now I cross my fingers & hope that I heal very soon! :) Hopefully I will be moving again before next weekend! My birthday is coming and I really want to visit my best friend!!!!!

The drink!

my stomach, I don't know if you can tell, but it is extended.
It is being stretched and I can feel it, kind of painful.
If it doesn't feel right by tomorrow, I think my mom is taking me
back in. We shall see.

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

It Never Ends.

For once, I wish my health wasn't an issue.

My health has seemed to being going downhill. My previous post talks about going to the hospital for chest pains. Well this morning around 6, I finally break down and go for a whole different matter. Last night around 10pm I started getting pains to the point walking hurt to bad, so I decided to sleep. Well, sleeping last night was nearly impossible from the pain and the nausea combined. So I broke down and went in around 6am this morning. Upon getting there, I knew I looked like crap, basketball shorts, T-shirt & mac's navy hoodie (my hair I left up in a ponytail from the night before, a MESS). Well, a nice man let me go in front of him, I guess I looked as if I was in that much pain, which I was. I peed in a cup for urine sample, poked with a needle for the third time since Saturday (they didn't even use the blood today). The doctor checked my ovaries not cat scan or xray. He said it's either ovarian cysts or my appendix and to come back in 18-24 hours if the pain doesn't get better or gets worse.

Well, I didn't even make it the 18 hours. About 3pm with Vicodin in my system I was in so much pain I was crying. So I got back in the car and drove to the hospital on base. They did a ct scan with dye. & found something with my appendix. My mom made it up there before I had a ct scan! My uncle dropped her off. I was admitted for an appendectomy. The general surgeon was very nice. 

Well, my mom took my car home after the procedure. Today she tells me that I was hitting the nurse when I was waking up. My mom's post below! 

I was discharged today around 5pm and now resting a bit with the help of family. Specially taking care of my dogs. 

I will keep posting periodically. 

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Stress, Stress, Stress...

....Where is my Break?

Everyone has stress, it's natural. There is good and bad stress. We just have to learn to balance them. Well, sometimes that is harder said than down. So now is time to find an outlet to let go of all this stress and what not. I tried a hot bath that didn't work. I'm beyond exhausted today, so outdoors is out of the question. What's next? Any suggestions.

Health Matters Updates

Well, last week sometime, I received a phone call. Of course, I answer it half asleep. It is a nurse from 'Internal Medicine'. It wasn't good news for me. She had told me that even though my referral was approved that the doctor there had kicked it back because I didn't meet HIS criteria of internal medicine. But he gave recommendations to my doctors, a bunch of crap. He really doesn't know much about me. He has no idea I have struggled with my bones, breaking over 10 bones before I was 18. He doesn't know what's going on with my eye. He DEFIANTLY doesn't know about my mitral valve prolapse, because I forgot to mention it. There is so much more going on and if INTERNAL Medicine isn't looking who will?
Still seeing these lovely things called floaters
Well this weekend wasn't a good one for me. Saturday afternoon babysitting, the little girl was down for a nap. I'm just sitting on the couch and the my heart feels like it just stops. After it started again, it was a little painful but it simmered down a bit. So, I called the doctor on call. She asked a lot of questions most were no. Except starting a new medication. I had just started a medicine abut a week ago. Never had this heart feeling until now. Anyways she told me to try and wait it out specially because I didn't have any chest pain. A few hours later, boom. Chest pain begins. I patiently waited until the little girls mom got home. Thankfully April came with me to the hospital. I had an EKG, Urine sample, blood work, X-ray and they all came back clean. They gave me so pain meds while I waited. Well, upon discharge the er doc didn't say much except that he wrote a referral to Cardiology. And so begins the waiting game.........

once again.......

Friday, September 6, 2013

Acceptance & Change

Each and every day, there is something somewhere you don't want to happen but we have to accept them. There are things we learn even if unwilling to learn them even if you don't want to accept them. And people we don't want to let go but we must anyways.

This is like being in a military relationship especially with those spouses that husbands are off the coast dealing with a mess.  There are things we wish wouldn't happen. We have had to accept them and learn about what is going on over there. We don't want to let go, but we must. However, in the end please remember it isn't permanent. It's only a "see you later" or "see you soon". Spouses of these ships dealing with this; remember that you are not alone. You are a lot stronger than you seem. There are a lot of people that are willing to be there for you, but you have to be willing to accept their hand.

Another Note:

I'd like to remind people that in order to love someone else, you must first love yourself. That doesn't mean that you can't lift someone up when they are down. Or even open and hold a door for someone behind you. A lot of people, today, are in their own little world. There is a lot of greed and selfishness. Where is love? Where is the time where we could rely on our neighbors to care? How many of you know your neighbors name? Can you trust them?

I enjoy watching people when I am in public. It gives me something to analyze. Almost every person I have seen never looks at their environment. There is quit a few people that never move out the way for a older couple, or doesn't even hold the door. Where is the respect? I mean we are only a little strong alone and overwhelm yourself faster. But if we came together like we use to, not separate by civilian or military than it would be a lot easier. Everyone knows who to go to when they want advice a military couple may go to a civilian couple for some advice, it just depends on what you are looking for; EVERYONE DOES IT. So don't be basis, it's ugly. Just because you ask for help or lean on each other doesn't mean you aren't independent. It just shows you are stronger and have the courage to reach out.

My challenge to you, is to help "pay it forward", just like the movie. Please, help someone in need and have them help someone in need, but don't limit it to one. Just because someone was rude/childish etc towards you doesn't mean you should spread that feeling. Be positive and share a open heart.**Almost everyone I know, knows that if they call no matter the time, I will be the first to say I'm coming. Or they know they can always talk to me when they need to. I am always here for any readers that need to talk.

Next blog post: what would you like the topic to be?

Monday, September 2, 2013

Take Time this Labor Day

Happy Labor Day everyone! I hope you have enjoyed your weekend.

“Sometimes it’s easy to feel like you’re the only one in the world who’s struggling, who’s frustrated, or unsatisfied, or barely getting by. But that feelings a lie. And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day and someone, or something, will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in our world. To remind us that it won’t always be this way. That someone is out there, and that someone will find you.”

Please remember with everything that is going on there are men and women that fight for our right to freedom. There are families that make a sacrifices and worry deep on the inside about what may happen. We don't stop and take the time to see how they truly are on the inside. Sometimes we just need a hug but our pride doesn't want to ask for it. So the next time you come across a friend that has a loved one away, don't over look them. They may just need someone to talk to. We say we are ok but that's probably because it may be too painful to just talk about it. Everyone needs that one person who will put there hand out when we have fallen, be that person! 

Families with loved ones out please remember it is ok to turn to someone to talk. There are people who truly care how you are doing. Even if you need a hug, I'm sure there are people who will be willing to give you a hug specially when it's in need. There isn't anything wrong with. Even if you just want to vent, I know how that feels and I offer an open ear every time.

I am always here for anyone who just needs to talk, vent, or even just needs a friend, please don't hesitate to message me using the contact form on the side.

We are strong alone, but we are stronger together.  That goes to everyone!

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Please Let's be Heard.

Dear readers,

I don't usually do this, but I need your help. I was watching a video post today usually I avoid them, but it was Glenn Beck. He is one person I truly respect because he tells us issues how they are and doesn't sugar coat them. So now I'm asking you to watch this 2 minute video and just listen to what he has to say. It really will hit home. This video is kind of terrifying. Please just watch it and see what you think of it for yourself.

I hope all service members over there come home safe!