Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Tears isn't weakness

"Sometimes the strongest women are the ones who love beyond all faults, cry behind closed doors, and fights battles that nobody knows."

This blog has given me the option to let me express what truly is going on. It's easier to type about what is going on rather than tell someone over and over again. & I want to thank all of you guys that are reading and following me. It means a lot. Just to know that I can help you all see things from a different point of view.  It's nice to know that I'm not alone, just as I imagine you feel a little better reading something that may relate to you.

I have always been the one to hold my feelings in because of the people who look up to me. Growing up, I dealt with a lot of different issues but I had one person I had to be strong for, my little brother. I knew he may not have though he was looking up to me and sometimes I thought he wouldn't. Though I took the mind set that he was. So what ever I was feeling, I knew so well how to hide it.  From when I can remember, whatever happened if Sterling was scared I stepped up, I may have been scared but the tears never showed. I loved him no matter what he did. 

Deployment! Everyone has heard of it, some never experience it, just see it. I never had military family. I only watched families come and go, parents deploy. It's different when you finally experience it first hand. I never realized how strong a spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/fiance has to be. This how deployment I have loved Mac more and more everyday! There has been times I'm sitting watching TV and I just cry. There is times a song comes on the radio and I can't hold the tears back. Sometimes, I've even been asked how can I do it..... How can I do it?? Really, How can I do it?? .....

How come you can't do it? Love can over come anything. It's a great feeling to know I have a man who still not only risk his life for me, but for millions he doesn't know. Someone who is true and worth every minute of the wait!  Yes, there are a few battles, issues that I have had to over come alone. But then again, I'm never truly alone. He is still with me in heart but not beside me physically.  I am the one who loves him beyond all faults, hide the tears or pain I may feel, and even fight battles that not everyone can understand.  

I will continue to be the STRONG woman, that I have always been. I'm another day down, as the same for some of you I imagine. It's been 141 days since he left. That means I'm so much closer to seeing him again!

Do you have anyone you must be strong for? Anything do you wish to share that may fit under the quote above?

1 comment:

  1. you should of heard yourself on the phone when i told you i found your webpage. "how did you find my page" "how did you find my page" "it's not funny" :P love you and see you soon

    -don't worry i haven't read all of it yet. ;)