Well, next thing, I feel like something is missing. what? I don't know. probably mac. But I've made it this far. Why just now does something feel like it's missing. ( no, I'm not saying I haven't missed him this whole time. Cause I sure have missed him). Maybe going from so much interaction to none. Or the things on my mind lately. I'm not sure. I know that it affected me so bad today, I didn't email mac. OF ALL THINGS I DIDN'T EMAIL HIM!!!! I always email him even if it is a hello, I love you, or even just good morning / good night. That isn't like me. So needless to say, it probably didn't help him today. He was the one that asked if everything was ok. How am I suppose to answer that when I can even answer it myself. My answer: It's just one of those blah days.
I'm hoping that going to bed tonight will be a new beginning. My mom will be here tomorrow, hopefully she can help shake this feeling.
Thanks for reading my minor vent for the day.
|I will continue on and trust I can shake this feeling. I have a|
great man by my side. Maybe not physically but he still is
there and with him there I can get through this feeling.
& most importantly :
Conquer this deployment one day at a time